|Jan. 2nd, 2011 @ 11:36 am 2011 starts early|
|Another year is upon us and for some odd reason, my subconscious decided to dream about my dad last night. It's like it's aware it's dreaming and yet, won't let me stop. In my dream, I even asked my dad "is this real?" and my dad said, "In here it is". I woke up crying.|
As I get older, I'm getting more and more regrets I cannot reconcile. A few years ago, I had none, now I have at least 3.
I guess that's still not too many. I dunno, what is a good number of regrets to have in life? :)
I wish I had spent more time with my dad while he was around. I always assumed there'd be more time. I guess that's just the nature of life and it'll just keep happening as I get older.
I wish I never said anything about my concerns to Diego and Minda. Even though it's rooted in my personality to be very upfront about everything, sometimes I need to learn to not say whats on my mind. Though I intend good things, the outcome of such is not necessarily good. True, even though I could always try to reconnect that friendship, I know it wouldn't be the same as it was.
I wish I had stayed in contact with all my old friends. Similar to the second, but without the heart breaking fight. All my old friends in California and the IRC chat channels I used to frequent, I simply lost contact with them. It wouldn't be too hard to simply contact them again, but as in the second, it wouldn't be the same as it was. It's like jumping back into an MMORPG after you quit for a few years... so many patches and changes, the game just isn't fun anymore.
These regrets I'll have to live with. But they're not so bad, all things considered, I am very fortunate that these are my only regrets.